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Research Blog April 23, 2010

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I have found many great sources pertaining to PTSD in veterans. One of the websites I have found has helped me more than any other. The website is http://www.ptsd.va.gov. I have found that this website has a lot of hand outs and information sheets about PTSD. I was able to answer most of my research questions from this one site. Also, I found the article ” 1 in 8 returning soldiers suffers from PTSD.” This article gave me a lot of useful information about the statistics of PTSD in veterans and has been really beneficial to my research project.

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Throughout this research project I have gained many valuable research skills. The one skill that I have learned in the past couple of weeks that has helped me a lot is learning how to write a formal email requesting an interview. I think for the most part I represent myself professionally. I think after learning how to write a formal email I am more confident and I know what to say and what not to say. Mrs. Lester has helped me a lot through this process and I think this is a skill I will use for the rest of my life.

 

Reading Response Journal

Filed under: Literature Circle Journal — jennifershirley13 @ 1:05 pm

I found a text to self connection within my reading. I made a connection with Tim. He made the statement that when his friend passed away he went to her funeral and she did not look like she was really dead. I can understand that, when my brother passed I tried to tell my self that it was not really happening. When I went to his funeral he did not look like he belonged in a casket. It did not really hit me until it touched the top of his head and it was as cold as ice. I can relate to the fact that the dead live, and I believe that my brother lives on through me and what I do and who I am as a person.

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In one part of the reading Tim wants to get back at Jorgenson for his lack of esperience and care as a medic when Tim was shot for the second time. Tim went with Azar to spook Jorgenson on his night shift. After they spook him Azar wants to continue and talks Tim into continuing. If I was Tim I would have redused and gone to bed. I would have feared of being attacked and injury because Jorgenson would think I was the enemy. Tim is lucky that he can to his senses and announced his name so Jorgenson would not shoot him or Azar. Although in the end Azar kicked him in the head and called him a coward. So in the end Tim still got injured, but not as severly as he could have been.

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A passage from the reading that stood out to me was, “We called the enemy ghosts. ‘Baf night,’ we’d say, ‘the ghosts are out’ To get spooked, in the lingo, meant not only to get scared but to get killed. ‘Don’t ger spooked,’ we’d say. ‘Stay cool, stay alive'” (O’Brien 202). This showed me how the soldiers dehumanized the enemy. I realized through this quote that they made the Vietnamese people into monsters instead of humans. Also I found it strange that they would say “don’t get spooked” instead of don’t get shot or don’t die. I did not realize how much the soldiers dehumanized the enemy. I knew they did to a certain degree but I did not realize that it would go to the extent of a new language devised by the soldiers.

 

Literature Circle Reading Response April 15, 2010

Filed under: Literature Circle Journal,Uncategorized — jennifershirley13 @ 2:46 am

A big issue for veterans is suicide. It is hard or impossible for some veterans to adjust back to normal lifer after war. Take Norman Bowker for example, he could not adjust and commited suicide. On the other hand veterans like Tim are able to easily go back to regular daily life. After the war many soldiers think that nothing is real or tangible in their lives. Some soldiers just can seem to fill the void that was ripped open by the war.

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I think that it is very kind of Jimmy Cross to feel the need to write Kiowa’s father about his death. I feel bad for Jimmy Cross; he thinks that Kiowa’s death was his fault. In reality I think his death was fate. I do not think that it was Jimmy’s fault because he was only following orders and that is what soldiers are taught to do. Also, I think some of the soldiers did not realize how bad ther fields were. Some of the soldiers made jokes about the muck fields while others looked at them with shame. The soldiers that were filled with shame are the ones who looked death in the eyes.

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A passage I reacted strongly to was, “I did not dlook on my work as therapy, and still don’t. Yet when I recieved Norman Bowker’s letter, it occured to me that the act of writing has led me throught a swirl of memories that might otherwise have ended in paralysis or worse. By telling stories, you objectify your own experience. You separate it from yourself. You pin down certain truths. You make up others. You start sometimes with an incident that truly happened, like the night in the s*** field, and you carry it forward by inventing incidents that did not occur but that noetheless help to clarify and explain” (O’Brien 158). This passage stood out to me because I think it helps clarify PTSD. Tim is basically saying that his writings are what kept the memories, nightsweats, and flash backs from flooding into his mind. Many soldiers that came back essientially lost their minds. I think that Tim stayed sane because he found a non-destructive outlet. Other soldiers might come back and find there outlet through sexual relations or alcohol, but Tim stayed healthy and found his outlet in writing. He found a way to tell his stories even if no one was around to listen.

 

Research Reflection 2; April 2nd April 2, 2010

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Within the first weeks of this research, I have found some tools more helpful and interesting than others. I have now begun to bookmark my research in Evernote, which I have found to be a very helpful tool. I found that Evernote is easy to use and I love the fact that all my information is right at my finger tips. Evernote is a great bookmarking and organizational tool. Also, I have started using iGoogle more and have found some of the widgets to be very helpful in the sense that all the websites I need to know about are linked to one nice and neat page. Another tool that is helping me is my Google Site. I use my Google Site to keep up with all my assignments and due dates so I will never fall behind, my site is a great way for me to organize all the elements of my research project. I have also found that the the iGoogle is a great way to keep up with areas such as class links, our class agenda, bookmarks, RSS feeds, and my E-locker. A new tool to me this year is Netvibes. I never heard of Netvibes before I was a student in the Media 21 class. I have found Netvibes to be a great information hub, I can post links to articles and incorporate RSS feeds with no hassle. I hope that I will continue the good use of my research tools. I think that I am a better student because of the tools and my access to the online media.

 

Literature Circle Reading Response April 1st April 1, 2010

Filed under: Literature Circle Journal — jennifershirley13 @ 1:25 am

Jennifer
Pages 119-154
April 1, 2010
The Things They Carried By: Tim O’Brien

There are many interesting quotes within the book The Things They Carried but there was one specific quote that I reacted strongly to. The quote says, “Courage was not always a matter of yes or no. Sometimes, it came in degrees, like the cold; sometimes you were very brave up to a point and then beyond that point you were not so brave. In certain situations you could do incredible things, you could advance toward enemy fire, but in other situations, which were not nearly so bad, you had trouble keeping your eyes open. Sometimes, like that night in the s*** field, the difference between courage and cowardice was something small and stupid” (O’Brien 147). This quote spoke to me in many ways. It showed me that the soldiers were not always brave and heroic. To me this made the soldiers seen like real men rather than just robots with guns. It made me realize that in a split second you bravery could vanish and you could be considered a coward. Also, from the last sentence I found that one small decision can be the difference between a brave hero and a cowardly man at war.
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I had a “light bulb moment” within this week’s reading. The passage was one describing who Tim killed and how the boy looked. The passage is on page 124 and goes into great detail. I read this passage and knew why so many soldiers face PTSD after the wars. The passage really showed me what the soldiers face when they go into the war. Tim was distraught after he killed the boy bur his fellow soldiers talked about how great of a kill it was. I think that they were just as upset though because every other word that came out of their mouths was a form of profanity. I think that when people use excessive profanity they are trying to hide their true feelings.
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A passage that stood out was one talking about a medal that Norman Bowker could have won for valor. The passage states, “Circling the lake, Norman Bowker remembered how his friend Kiowa had disappeared under the waste and water. ‘I didn’t flip out,’ he would’ve said. ‘I was cool. If things had gone right, if it hadn’t been for that smell, I could have won the Silver Star’” (O’Brien 150). This passage stood out to me because it sounded like Norman was more upset about losing the chance to get a medal than he was that he just lost a friend in the war. This showed me that the soldiers are dehumanized from themselves meaning that they hide the pain in their own minds. I have to admit that it shocked me that Norman was more upset about not getting a special medal than the loss of a friend. He watched a friend slip under a deep mud pit and all he could think of was the lack of medal he had. I think that he denied himself the feelings of true sorrow by covering with the sorrow of something as shallow as a medal of valor.

 

I-Search Paper: What I Knew About My Topic March 29, 2010

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I-Search Paper: What I Knew About My Topic
Jennifer S.
PTSD in Vietnam veterans
March 26, 2010
7th

Within the first few days of researching I have found that I want to so more in depth research about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder within Vietnam veterans. I found PTSD very interesting and I want to learn more about it and how it changes the soldiers. I think that researching PTSD is important because it is very prominent and it seems to be a big problem among veterans. I think that learning about PTSD will help me understand more of what goes on in war the the effects of war. Learning out this disorder will help me better understand the veterans. I want to research PTSD because I know a few veterans that suffer from this disorder. I think researching PTSD in Vietnam veterans will be a great learning experience

Right now I do not know much about my topic. I would like to know who PTSD effects and why it is such a problem. I think that PTSD can lead to suicide and death of the veterans. If the veterans knew more about the disorder maybe they could get help in settling their nerves. What I know right now about PTSD is that it is a state of paranoia. I know that one of the biggest triggers is sound. Soldiers hear something that resembles the war and they go into survival mode. I think that if more people learned about PTSD we could all help to stop the progression of the disorder.

 

Research Reflection Thursday, March 25th March 25, 2010

Filed under: Research Reflections — jennifershirley13 @ 1:28 pm

Jennifer
Ms. Lester
World Lit/Comp Hon
March 25, 2010

Since starting this new research project, I have learned to use some new and interesting research tools. As of a couple of days ago, I have learned how to use Evernote, which is a great bookmarking tool. Last semester our class used Diigo; personally I did not like Diigo and found it hard to use. However, this semester I have started using Evernote and I love it the best out of any of the tools I have used so far. Evernote is simple and easy to navigate, but it also keeps all my research information in one nice and neat area, so I can access it with little or no hassle. Also, last semester we made an iGoogle account; I never really used it and never found it helpful to my research. Now I use my iGoogle all the time and not only at school; I use my iGoogle at home as well. I have found that the the iGoogle is a great way to mix my personal interests such as weather, shopping, news, music, and other areas of content with my school work such as class links, our class agenda, bookmarks, RSS feeds, and my E-locker. Another tool that I have found more useful this semester is my Google site. Last semester we all had Google sites, but I never kept mine up to date. I do not know if I did not like the layout or if there was another reason for not using it, but I never thought I benefited from the site. This semester we made a new Google site and now I use it all the time. My favorite features on the site are the count down till the project due date, and the To-Do list. I find My google site helpful in organization and time management. I think that using these new research tools will help me achieve my goals and make my deadline in a timely manner.